I sit and spit
out the dirt that I swallowed
when you buried me.
for her. and her. and her.
for her. and her. and her.
so much fucking dirt.
I dust it from my limbs,
I shake it from my hair.
stock still, staring at this gaping hole.
A hole that my fingers
clawed the edges of to be
reborn. A hole that I intend to
bury you in, darling one.
first those stiff legs
that wanted me to stretch,
that needed me to lay
my hands upon them, as if
that needed me to lay
my hands upon them, as if
it would save my life
for you to feel better.
I always wanted you.
wanted you to feel better.
Next your chest, because
it really didn't do much
for me anyway.
that place your heart lives
with it's central air,
so tight and guarded and
clean. polished, no evidence
allowed to reside.
next your beautiful face
because I can no longer
stand to have those broken brown
mirrors looking at me, smiling
that sad knowing smile.
looks that say
I can love you from afar
with my bow. and my arrow.
I can love you from afar
with my bow. and my arrow.
naturally your love takes cover.
you couldn't love me
like hand to hand combat.
you couldn't love me
like hand to hand combat.
too dirty. too bloody.
lastly, I cover up that pelvis.
the region in which lives
the region in which lives
your most well known
attribute. yes, and it is beautiful.
that primary object
I was in relation with.
me and every other woman, girl,
me and every other woman, girl,
and in between you held space for.
I did love that part of you.
mmm, I love it still.
mmm, I love it still.
maybe, before this grave is done,
just...one last hit?
and then, you will finally be
the man you wanted to be
the man you wanted to be
for me. just another
faceless fuck. please. don’t take it
personal. I know you won't.
I wish I didn't.
goodbye my lover.
I'd like to believe I won't come visit.
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