Letters in Your Heart

We all have people in our lives that we wish we could say something to but maybe they are passed away...or maybe life has just happened in a way so that you can't say what you want...or maybe you should really just call and tell that person if they are still alive... only you know what is right for your life deep down in your very center.

I am very much an advocate for communication, but life does have it's grey areas, doesn't it? Sometimes even when you speak, words cannot and will not be enough to convey your meaning.

When this is the case, at least I believe in this...there is an energy in all of us. You can feel it when you want something very badly or when you lose someone you love, or when you are truly inspired. It may sit in different places for some of us, maybe in our guts or our minds. For me it resides in my chest, clawing to get out, fluttering like a bird in a cage. 

I believe that this energy finds its way into the hearts, minds and souls of these people who can't hear you. Remember in Eat, Pray, Love when Richard and Elizabeth are having this conversation...??

"But I love him." 
"So, love him."
"But I miss him."
"So miss him. Send him love and light every time you think about him, then drop it."

This entire conversation between these two people is genius and I could write it all out or you could just go and find it here. (I find Elizabeth Gilbert to be a genius in general with this entire book).

Sometimes talking doesn't solve everything...or anything. But the message in your heart is real, will remain and will find it's way to the person you are pointing it at, even if they are passed away, in my opinion. So take solace, dear ones, that may relate to this post. 

I was inspired to post this because of a conversation I had with my girlfriend this past weekend while (kind of) camping. I had written this post months ago and two days ago, around the campfire, my friend started talking about letters that you never send. I knew then that I had to post this. I hope that it finds its way into your heart. 

xo ~

Dance of Bali

During my trip to Bali, of course I wanted to go see some of their culture and that includes their traditional dance. Yukari, my new yogini friend from Japan, found this one and so Lowell, Yukari and I fully enjoyed this performance together one night under the stars at Gunung Sari Temple.

The story goes like this, a king meets a princess of a neighboring country who has lost her way in the forest. (poor princess)... the king proposes to her but the princess is already engaged and of course...has no choice in the matter. The king, who now cannot live without her, invades the neighboring country to fight the prince, but loses the war.   

the dancing is so very beautiful. 

Later, the fight of Barong (a holy forest dwelling animal) and Rangda (a witch living in the sea) fight. According to the Balinese, balance is kept by bipolar entities opposing each other. God and the Devil, Life and Death, Earth and Sea, etc... 

The pictures from here down are from the Kecak Fire Dance, where I got to dance in the circle with the clowns during Intermission! So fun.

Life is Worth Living.

You don't have to be anyone's solution in life. That's a lot of responsibility. If you have children...yes. But even them, not when they're adults. You don't have to be anyone's question in life. Also, a lot of responsibility, a lot of pressure. 

What I mean to say is that you need to be yourself first. Experiencing life as your "self", allowing yourself the space to move from authenticity, being healthy and whole is all of our own  responsibilities.

Relationships are so important. Making sure that we are coming from a place of authenticity allows those relationships to be built on a solid foundation and to grow into something beautiful and lasting. 

Take a shower, put your fingertips in the water coming down upon you and actually feel it. Take a moment in silence and feel yourself breathing. You are alive, a creation...born to create your life. Create...and then share. 

Bali Buda

Bali Buda is one of the best places to be in Ubud, Bali...period. It is a bakery/health food store/coffee shop and it has the cutest little restaurant upstairs as well that is great to relax and have breakfast in. It would be a dream to live here and own this business. Or even just to go there every morning for their incredible rolls, croissants and muffins. Or maybe one of each, just saying.

One morning, as I had my nose pressed to the wire baskets covering the baked goods willing all of the breads in at once with my nostrils, I heard a man laugh beside me, telling me that he lived in Ubud and had never done that. I was completely consumed and hadn't realized anyone was even around me. I told him he should try it, to which he started talking about his favorite smell in Bali, the incense in the air as he drove around on his motorcycle. While it's true Bali has it's choice of good smells...Bali Buda tops my list!

Jamaica, August 2012

Action Shot: Dancing is indeed the best meditation for me. Nicest girl at the airport teaching me her moves. :)

Keesha Lynn. :)

No need to edit for color, Jamaica naturally has magical, beautiful colors.

No, but that was really how it was spelled everywhere. 

Amazing Earth. 

12 hours of travel, three flights, lost luggage, 12:45 am and have to drive home from Pittsburgh.  Oy.  But still smiling.